Being Me…

and discovering that that is quite the roller coaster ride. Wanna come along?

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Rain, rain go away…

And come again some other day…sigh.

It feels as if it has rained or snowed since January 1.  I know it really hasn’t been that bad, that we’ve had nice days too, but wow.  I am just so TIRED of wet, grey weather.

On a brighter note, the National Walk for Epilepsy in Washington DC is next weekend and we are going as a family!  Should be quite an adventure – all four of us, loose in DC!  Our little princess should be ok in the hotel room, but it has been a while since we’ve stayed in one.  I just hope that the weather improves between now and then; we’re all recovering from being sick last week.  The last thing we need to do is go up and walk three miles or so in the rain…

Things to do before the walk:

  1. Laundry
  2. Register with LGS Foundation
  3. Check mail/email.
  4. Water indoor plants – goodness knows the outdoor plants are wet enough; they might just float away!
  5. Pack – make sure we have chargers, all of our medications, and my Kindle.

In other news, I’ve decided to take a break from the online classes that I’ve been taking.  I just haven’t been able to focus and put the work into them that they called for.  If you’re going to do something, you really should do it right.  So…while the family is sick and I’m tired, I’m taking a break.  Sometimes you just need to do it.  I’ve found something else to focus on – actually several things.  I am listening to TED talks and doing Zen Doodles (something like Zentangles).  *I started to include a picture but it occurred to me that that would involve using someone else’s artwork, so I will have to wait for that, until I can scan MY OWN artwork.

I find these doodles very relaxing and creatively stimulating at the same time.  I can’t explain it.  LOL, my eight-year-old looked at my latest work last night and said, “Oh, Mama, that’s BEAUTIFUL!”  Made me smile!


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Being present


Today I had a day out – Mama’s Day Out…lol.  Sometimes you just HAVE to do it.  I went to the botanical garden near us, which is gorgeous.   Most of the people caring for the plants are volunteers; they have even had some nearby military folks come in for various projects.  All of them do a spectacular job.

Anyway – all of that to say that I went there today to stop: stop thinking too much, stop worrying needlessly, stop getting ahead of myself, and stop being anxious.  I simply walked (a lot – 10,000+ steps) and sat.  Today was about 80 degrees, sunny and breezy.  I’m not sure what the humidity was, but it was incredibly low for this time of year.  It was perfect.  I could hear the birds calling, children playing in their area of the gardens, and planes taking off from the airport next door.  I felt the breeze ruffling my hair, the sun on my face and the occasional flick of an insect landing on me.  I got to see a turtle doing his best “I’m the King of the World” (from Titanic) on a log in the water, and a red-headed woodpecker hopping on a tree.

I feel so much better now.  Amazing what stopping and taking a pause from life will do for you.

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Having a social life …well, kind of

Well, we are actually spending time this weekend with other people! Yay!  It is good for all of us, and it is a good distraction from the worries that hover over us all the time right now.  Yes, the social life, the time with others this weekend is with family (my father is up from Alabama) but it is good just the same, better even because he and my stepmother love us and really focus on enjoying ALL of the time we spend together because it is so rare.

It is so good for us as a family to stop worrying, relax, go out and have a good time.  Yes, we talk about the issues facing us but not as much and the conversation does seem to help lighten the load so that too is good.  Over all, this has been relaxing, freeing, and comforting for me.  It was a much needed rest.