Being Me…

and discovering that that is quite the roller coaster ride. Wanna come along?

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The end of some things and a new beginning for others

I love January, at least THIS January.  I feel as if a great burden has been lifted off of me with the end of 2013.  My husband and I finally, finally, FINALLY took the steps we needed to move on and out from under the debt we “acquired” during our painful unemployed period seven years ago.  The relief is so intense that I cannot even find words to describe it.  Carrying that weight for that length of time has been painful in the extreme.

We should have done this long ago, but depression is an insidious beast.  When BOTH parents are extremely depressed, it is incredibly difficult to do anything more than basic necessary things.  We kept the children fed, clothed, and sheltered – but many things fell by the wayside.  What I see with the end of December 2013 is the end, finally, of our deep pit, our trial by fire.   What I see with the beginning of 2014 is the bright light of hope, the glistening possibility of life again.

We still have some steps to take in January to finalize the closure but our part of the process should be over on Tuesday.  Phew.

Here is to taking care of business and closing out what has to be finished, and here’s to turning the corner and moving on to a happier, healthier life.  Here’s to finding hope and light again.


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Happy new year …and clean slate

Here is to a fresh start.  I made plenty of mistakes that I would rather forget last year…but I am going to learn from them instead (hopefully) and move forward this year.

I will be warmer and more open.

I will be clearer in my communications.

I am going to stand up for myself.

I am going to say no when I need to do so.

I am going to take care of myself – after all, we only get ONE life.

I am going to put my children first – the housework will be there tomorrow.

I am going to listen better.

I am going to express my creative self.

I think that is a good start for 2013 – no doubt I will grow from here.