Being Me…

and discovering that that is quite the roller coaster ride. Wanna come along?

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Being present


Today I had a day out – Mama’s Day Out…lol.  Sometimes you just HAVE to do it.  I went to the botanical garden near us, which is gorgeous.   Most of the people caring for the plants are volunteers; they have even had some nearby military folks come in for various projects.  All of them do a spectacular job.

Anyway – all of that to say that I went there today to stop: stop thinking too much, stop worrying needlessly, stop getting ahead of myself, and stop being anxious.  I simply walked (a lot – 10,000+ steps) and sat.  Today was about 80 degrees, sunny and breezy.  I’m not sure what the humidity was, but it was incredibly low for this time of year.  It was perfect.  I could hear the birds calling, children playing in their area of the gardens, and planes taking off from the airport next door.  I felt the breeze ruffling my hair, the sun on my face and the occasional flick of an insect landing on me.  I got to see a turtle doing his best “I’m the King of the World” (from Titanic) on a log in the water, and a red-headed woodpecker hopping on a tree.

I feel so much better now.  Amazing what stopping and taking a pause from life will do for you.


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The only true wisdom is in knowing you know nothing (Socrates)

Grumpy and Cuddly Things

So very true, but I’m not feeling very wise tonight.  My oldest and I are butting heads lately and I have no clue why.  He’s only seven, but he’s already getting mouthy with me.  Not with the males in his live, mind you – me and his grandmothers.  Sigh.  I suppose it is in part because he knows my buttons (sigh – already) and I understand kids push boundaries and that they have to; it isn’t like I don’t understand that.  I just don’t get why so much lately.

I’ve had other problems on my plate lately, but I thought I had been dealing fairly well with them.  I truly didn’t think any of my personal stress had been carrying over so much that my son would respond to it.  He does seem to be fairly sensitive, enough that he was really angry when my husband and I were having serious problems.

I’m going to have to think on this some more.  Sigh – people keep saying, “Just wait until he’s a teen” – I don’t WANT to think about that right now.  I’d really rather face what is in front of me, thank you very much.

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In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on

In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on.

Robert Frost

Well, life certainly is an adventure.  Sophie was sick for four days with a stomach virus two weeks ago.  Then, just as she was getting better, my husband got it.  He was sick for four days (out of work two).  Well, a week went by without my son or me getting it, so I was starting to feel a bit more hopeful that it might pass us by – no such luck.  Both of us got violently ill Saturday morning.    Amazingly enough, it has only taken us two days of complete inactivity to recover.    Still – all in all, that whole period of time was exhausting.  Stomach bugs are REALLY, REALLY nasty; in some recent reading, it seems you can remain contagious for quite a long time (some say 3 weeks) after your illness passes.  Seriously?  Well, I can’t stop going out into the world for three weeks!  I suppose that explains why these things go around so quickly in schools and workplaces.  Ugh.

On a brighter note…life does go on.  The holidays are coming up.  We’re making wish lists.  We’re making sure we’re REALLY, REALLY good…just in case 😀  (at least my seven-year-old…my daughter really does not pay attention!).  The weather is cooling off and it actually feels holiday-ish.  Life does go on – the illness passes, the mood passes, the bad passes…and the good as well.  There is a rhythm to life and it is so important to remember – whether you are ecstatic or depressed – that this too shall pass.  Life is so much less stressful if you stop fighting it and relax.