I am feeling down and I’m not sure why. I am suddenly very interested in what my high school boyfriend is doing and I have no idea why – and why now? Am I lonely? Am I just feeling nostalgic? And what triggered this? Sigh. I don’t know any of these things and it is frustrating.
I don’t feel depressed. I actually feel sad. And sadly, I don’t know how to cope with it. I suppose that that is because I am on antidepressants and I think they cover a lot of my “down” times. I don’t know. I think I would feel better if I knew what was causing this, what the problem was. At least if you know what the problem is, you have a better chance of fixing it.
Maybe it is that my birthday is in two days. I will be 47 – gasp. Well, it is better than NOT being 47! And that isn’t a “milestone” – like 45 or 50. I don’t know. Aaargh. I just want to feel better than this.
Well, this too shall pass. The weather is supposed to be beautiful this weekend so maybe I will be able to get out and get some sunshine.