Being Me…

and discovering that that is quite the roller coaster ride. Wanna come along?

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” You are braver than you believe…”

“If ever there is tomorrow when we’re not together… there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we’re apart… I’ll always be with you.”
― A.A. Milne

I just love this quote.  I’m holding on to it now, dealing with all of the stresses that I’m facing.  I hope, really really HOPE, that I am indeed braver than I think I am.  I’ve been told that I am, that others have faith in me, believe in me, know that I can do all that I need to do…but some days it is harder than others.

Just when I think I’m getting a grip on home life, my work life is starting to shimmy.  Sigh. Really?  I cannot have just a week without some upheaval, some threat, some fear of loss?  It is my punctuality – the recent problems were that I went home early from work without advance notice (well, DUH…I got SICK)…and I was four minutes late two days in one week.  Seriously?  That is their problem with me?  Aaargh.

Well…tomorrow is another day.  A fresh start, and free (so far) from threats.  And I am braver than I think I am…I am, I am, I am.


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Woo-hoo…I’m an employee

With benefits and sick/vacation time and everything!  Yay!

Ok, nothing has really changed with the job, I’ll admit.  I already worked on things that most companies I worked for in the past would never have put a temp on, so access hasn’t changed.  Still, it feels a little more secure (even though I know that’s an illusion) and that makes me happy.

That’s one problem down – and quite a number a head of me…but I’m happy, so happy, to scratch one off the list and move on.  I’ll get my life back in order even if it is a small step here, a small step there…and at a snails’ pace.  At least I’m moving in the right direction.

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Tomorrow I become a REAL employee…

Yay!  I’m no longer a temp…

Yes, the agency served its purpose and led to me and my husband BOTH getting jobs…but they did no more than they had to and they certainly were not helpful in fixing problems I had.  I won’t miss them at all – and I hope not to go back.

It feels good to move into a “permanent” position, even though I know there’s not really job security anywhere anymore.  Temps are usually the first to go, so it is good to get away from that.  I feel more secure, and that is a relief of some of my stress.

Here’s to a bright new year, and hope for the future.