Being Me…

and discovering that that is quite the roller coaster ride. Wanna come along?


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Time is that quality of nature which keeps events from happening all at once

Time is that quality of nature which keeps events from happening all at once.  Lately it doesn’t seem to be working. Anonymous
I love family.  Really.  I’m not being snide (much).  We have his and her families – go figure; most married couples do.  They both decided to “eat” at 2 pm on Thanksgiving this year.  Yay.  So, a choice had to be made…my mother wound up seeing her daughter and stepdaughter in shifts.  I so needed to be in two places at once.  It was the first time in a long, long time that my stepsister and I would have been together at a holiday and my mother wanted pictures, but … my husband’s brother and his wife decided to cook Thanksgiving dinner for the first time ever … and invited 16 people.  Sigh. The worst part is that I’m not really comfortable with my husband’s family right now, so I would DEFINITELY have preferred to spend the day with MY family (shocking, I know).  This is just an unusual state for me; his family has been great, but living together was a bit of a strain and it went on for 5 months.

For the next two days, I just want to stay home and enjoy the quiet.  I don’t want to feel any pressure from any family.  I don’t even really want to see any family.  We’ve had two days visiting and two days of “aren’t you going to…” and I’m tired.  I have two very small children…I’m doing THE BEST I can, thankyouverymuch!

*Sigh*

Well, that feels better…sometimes you just need to vent.  I love my family, I really do…but I swear they are out to make me crazy.

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First week draws to a close

And I survived.  It wasn’t as bad as I was afraid it would be.  I did fine.  Sure, there were a few mistakes, but they were minor and easily fixable.  I think it is workable.  We’ll see how the rest of the job goes – how I feel about the work that will be the actual core of my job.  If that isn’t what I want, then I’ll have to keep looking.  Really the worst part of all of this has been leaving the kids – I’ve been home with them all of their lives and I think my oldest (a three year old) is having some trouble adjusting.  I hope that gets better; I’m sure it will in time.  Sigh.

Tomorrow we’re going to a cookout with both families at my brother-in-law’s house.  We’re having the standard hot dogs, hamburgers, chips, etc.  They also have a pool, so I’m sure there will be swimming at some point.  All in all, a good time will be had by all!  I expect to fall into bed tomorrow night, content and tired.

The rest of the weekend is unplanned at this point, but I do have to catch up on some things that I used to do during the week.  There’s enough of that to keep me busy, I’m sure, but I am hoping to fit more fun stuff in as well.  Here’s hoping to a great family weekend.