Being Me…

and discovering that that is quite the roller coaster ride. Wanna come along?


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Review of September 2016

Well – September didn’t go as planned.  I’m afraid I still need to work on motivation.  However, I did make some changes in September with medicines that should help in that area; it just takes time.  So, I’m disappointed but I think October will be better.

Family

  1. Plan one outing a month for each child.      – Didn’t do this
  2. Plan family game nights again.                       – Didn’t do this

Personal

  1. Update personal development blog.
  2. Blog more frequently.
  3. Do one thing every day for me.          Done

Social

  1. Go out with friends once.
  2. Call Carol weekly or so.
  3. Call and check on Dad.            Done

Work

  1. Be more readily available.      Done
  2. Improve my focus.                    Done – change in start times helped

Body

  1. Exercise 5 times a week
  2. Eat more fruits
  3. Eat more vegetables
  4. Lose 5 pounds.
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September Goals

Family

  1. Plan one outing a month for each child.
  2. Plan family game nights again.

Personal

  1. Update personal development blog.
  2. Blog more frequently.
  3. Do one thing every day for me.

Social

  1. Go out with friends once.
  2. Call Carol weekly or so.
  3. Call and check on Dad.

Work

  1. Be more readily available.
  2. Improve my focus.

Body

  1. Exercise 5 times a week
  2. Eat more fruits
  3. Eat more vegetables
  4. Lose 5 pounds.


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Slow progress is still progress, right?

Well, I’ve accomplished one thing in the past month – I’ve gotten my daughter into Project Lifesaver, a program to help bring people with cognitive issues home if they run off.  I’m so relieved – I mean, I hope I never need it but knowing that she has an anklet to allow the police to track her if she disappears is such a relief.  Her anklet was put on by a very nice policeman, who checked to make sure it fit just right.  He gave me all sorts of information on the program, and explained what information the police need if I ever need to call them.

At least I am starting to make progress in the projects on my to-do list:  (a) Project Lifesaver, (b) EDCD waiver for Sophie to help pay for expenses and possibly get respite care, and (c) get our life insurance up to a reasonable level and write wills.  Those are the big three and now I’ve accomplished the first.

I feel like I’ve been in a fog for a very long time.  I am sure that it has been depression, despite being on antidepressants.  It is amazing what a deep whole depression can be and how much effort it takes to dig out from it.  Escaping its grasp is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do and I expect it will be a lifetime fight, just based on our circumstances.  I try hard to be kind to myself when I take a few steps back and celebrate times like now when I make progress.