Being Me…

and discovering that that is quite the roller coaster ride. Wanna come along?

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Wow what a night!

We had at least one tornado and possibly more touch down near us tonight.  Thankfully, neither was close to us.  The closest one was 2-3 miles away.  I’m truly grateful it was no closer – it destroyed a church, and damaged several nearby houses.    The thunderstorm that followed the hail and the tornado(s) was really severe.  All in all, it was a tense hour or two.

My mother and stepfather returned tonight from Duke University, where they saw a cancer specialist.  They performed a scan of some sort, then went in (non-surgically) to take a look at his tumor.  The news wasn’t good.  They cannot operate on him.  That doesn’t leave many options.  He will go back to his oncologist sometime soon and see what he says, but Dad already said he won’t have more chemo (of course, Mom said that was before he knew they couldn’t operate).  We shall see, but I think his time is limited.



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Christmas 2016

Well, today has been a good if somewhat disjointed day.  Not disjointed, just…not quite smooth, I suppose.  The morning was smooth and fun, the evening was smooth and fun.  Lunch was…interesting.  We had turkey cooked by a neighbor who didn’t eat with us, along with gravy (two types) and three types of potatoes, plus salad.  No bread, no corn, no green veggies except the salad.  Donna was supposed to be there with corn pudding and her stuffing with sausage, but at 1:15 (15 minutes after we were supposed to eat), Mom called her and they weren’t even close to leaving the house.  She thought Mom had said 2.  And…AND…she wasn’t even planning on leaving until 2.  Sigh.  So we ate the potatoes, potatoes, potatoes, gravy and turkey before she got there.  We were too hungry not to do so.  I don’t know if she was bothered, but Mom swore up and down that she talked to her yesterday and told her again that it was for 1 pm.  My sister (step) operates on her own time schedule since she lost her job five  years ago so this is really not surprising.  She prefers these things be later in the day and apparently just cannot adapt to the fact that we have young kids who need to eat before 3.  She just comes to things whenever she feels like it, but this Christmas meal was her idea.  So…I don’t know.  It was just kind of odd.

Anyway, the rest of the day went well.  In the morning, Andy’s parents came over to see what our kids got for Christmas and to bring us their presents to us.  We had a nice visit – I even managed to be showered and dressed before they got here; that was a nice change of pace…lol.  I usually have a bad case of “bed head” when they arrive.

And after lunch was fine.  We got home around 4:20 or so I think and we relaxed and watched some football.  Well, ok – Andy and I watched some football.  The kids of course played with ALL of their toys everywhere.

It was nice to visit with both sets of parents this year.  I’m afraid it might be the last one with Dad Walker – he isn’t tops on my list of favorite people as he has been an ass to me and to my mother but I wouldn’t wish stomach cancer on ANYONE.  He’s having a tough time after the last round of chemo and it sounds like they might not do another round for a while.  They might stop it.  That doesn’t seem good – and it isn’t good that he’s sick and weak so soon after the chemo.  Sigh.  I feel for my mother; he’s not a good patient.

Well, we shall see.  I wish him well and I wish him improved health this year.  Maybe I’m wrong about how things are going.

To anyone who might read this, I hope you have a merry Christmas or whatever holiday you might celebrate at this time of year.  And I hope that you will cherish your loved ones – tell them you love them because you never know what life has in store or how much time you will have with them.  Kind of a somber note but I’m watching my stepsister waste the time she might have left with her father and it makes me sad.  She won’t be able to get this time back when he is gone.

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Wow. Just….wow

I thought that losing my father, a great aunt, my grandmother, and my husband’s aunt was enough for the year.  It seems that 2016 isn’t done with our family yet.  I found out today that my stepfather has stomach cancer, that it is advanced and inoperable, and that it has spread.

I’m speechless.  I have had a rough relationship with him in recent years, but he’s been married to my mother for 30+ years and I wouldn’t wish this on anyone.  I wouldn’t have our relationship end like this.  Ugh.


Please pray for our family.  2016 has been a challenge.