Being Me…

and discovering that that is quite the roller coaster ride. Wanna come along?


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Strength and Creativity Needed

Well, our daughter is going to be the death of me.  She has, in the past week, tipped over two dressers.  She is fine; the first dresser is not.  We have been using the dressers/wardrobes to keep her out of the windows and away from the blinds/curtains.  I don’t know how much longer we can do that and I have NO idea what we’re going to do after they cease working.

The dressers are now anchored as securely as we could make them in a rental.  I think this will work for a while.  But what next?  I cannot think of any good solutions.  There are window locks that can be installed but are they secure enough for a very determined child?  If we put the window locks in and move the dressers, we will have to take the curtains down or she will rip them down.  And we wouldn’t be able to close the blinds because she will break them.  So then what?  I don’t like the idea of leaving her windows open to the public, not that there is much walking traffic behind our apartment.  We’re in a rental so we can’t tint the window or frost it or anything similar.  I just don’t know.  I’m trying to think ahead but it is frustrating and worrisome.  I can feel my anxiety rising.  Sigh.  Nobody told me just how creative I would have to be to foil my daughter….

On a brighter note, we picked up our son’s glasses today.  They are round and rather cute on him.  At least that is taken care of for a while.  I also met the school psychologist who will be working with him monthly to work on some issues he’s had at school.  She is young but very nice (I’ve noticed that the older I get, the younger others look!).  I think that Alex will be in good hands.  She asked a lot of good questions and we had a good talk.

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Keeping a child awake

Well, keeping a child awake is interesting.  Our 10-year-old was actually moaning by 11 pm.  She was still in a pretty good mood, but definitely liking lights out and ready for sleep.  By 11:30 she had had enough of me and pushed me off of her bed and pointed down the hall!  I gave up shortly thereafter and let her go to sleep.  I hate making her stay awake, making her uncomfortable.

Today was long.  I was tired, she was tired, my husband was tired…pretty much everyone but our son was tired.  She resisted getting up, running back to bed and pointing up to the light to indicate it should be turned off.  After three or four attempts, she finally gave up on going back to bed and started playing.

I found out after I got home that she screamed and cried through the EEG.  I hate that, I HATE it.  I know these things are necessary, and I know they didn’t hurt her, but wow… it is awful knowing your child had to go through such a miserable experience.  At any rate, the test is done; now we just have to wait to find out the results.  I don’t know that the neurologist is really expecting anything specific; S.  just hasn’t had an EEG in quite some time.  I guess we’ll find out.

I’m really looking forward to bed tonight.

Coffee can't fix this tired


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Wow what a night!

We had at least one tornado and possibly more touch down near us tonight.  Thankfully, neither was close to us.  The closest one was 2-3 miles away.  I’m truly grateful it was no closer – it destroyed a church, and damaged several nearby houses.    The thunderstorm that followed the hail and the tornado(s) was really severe.  All in all, it was a tense hour or two.

My mother and stepfather returned tonight from Duke University, where they saw a cancer specialist.  They performed a scan of some sort, then went in (non-surgically) to take a look at his tumor.  The news wasn’t good.  They cannot operate on him.  That doesn’t leave many options.  He will go back to his oncologist sometime soon and see what he says, but Dad already said he won’t have more chemo (of course, Mom said that was before he knew they couldn’t operate).  We shall see, but I think his time is limited.