Being Me…

and discovering that that is quite the roller coaster ride. Wanna come along?

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Christmas 2016

Well, today has been a good if somewhat disjointed day.  Not disjointed, just…not quite smooth, I suppose.  The morning was smooth and fun, the evening was smooth and fun.  Lunch was…interesting.  We had turkey cooked by a neighbor who didn’t eat with us, along with gravy (two types) and three types of potatoes, plus salad.  No bread, no corn, no green veggies except the salad.  Donna was supposed to be there with corn pudding and her stuffing with sausage, but at 1:15 (15 minutes after we were supposed to eat), Mom called her and they weren’t even close to leaving the house.  She thought Mom had said 2.  And…AND…she wasn’t even planning on leaving until 2.  Sigh.  So we ate the potatoes, potatoes, potatoes, gravy and turkey before she got there.  We were too hungry not to do so.  I don’t know if she was bothered, but Mom swore up and down that she talked to her yesterday and told her again that it was for 1 pm.  My sister (step) operates on her own time schedule since she lost her job five  years ago so this is really not surprising.  She prefers these things be later in the day and apparently just cannot adapt to the fact that we have young kids who need to eat before 3.  She just comes to things whenever she feels like it, but this Christmas meal was her idea.  So…I don’t know.  It was just kind of odd.

Anyway, the rest of the day went well.  In the morning, Andy’s parents came over to see what our kids got for Christmas and to bring us their presents to us.  We had a nice visit – I even managed to be showered and dressed before they got here; that was a nice change of pace…lol.  I usually have a bad case of “bed head” when they arrive.

And after lunch was fine.  We got home around 4:20 or so I think and we relaxed and watched some football.  Well, ok – Andy and I watched some football.  The kids of course played with ALL of their toys everywhere.

It was nice to visit with both sets of parents this year.  I’m afraid it might be the last one with Dad Walker – he isn’t tops on my list of favorite people as he has been an ass to me and to my mother but I wouldn’t wish stomach cancer on ANYONE.  He’s having a tough time after the last round of chemo and it sounds like they might not do another round for a while.  They might stop it.  That doesn’t seem good – and it isn’t good that he’s sick and weak so soon after the chemo.  Sigh.  I feel for my mother; he’s not a good patient.

Well, we shall see.  I wish him well and I wish him improved health this year.  Maybe I’m wrong about how things are going.

To anyone who might read this, I hope you have a merry Christmas or whatever holiday you might celebrate at this time of year.  And I hope that you will cherish your loved ones – tell them you love them because you never know what life has in store or how much time you will have with them.  Kind of a somber note but I’m watching my stepsister waste the time she might have left with her father and it makes me sad.  She won’t be able to get this time back when he is gone.

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December 2016

It is so hard to believe that we are down to the last month of 2016.  Where has the time gone?  Sad to say, I haven’t accomplished many of the goals I had for this year.  I fell into a funk for a good portion of the year and just couldn’t get out of it, at least not enough to be successful in accomplishing my goals.  Basically, I did the bare necessities for the greater portion of the year.  Oh I had good periods where I accomplished things – bursts of energy – but they were scattered.  This sounds really negative, and I suppose that it is, but I am on an upward swing.

I have hopes for this month, and for 2017.  I had an adjustment made to a medication I’m on and it has made a world of difference.  Now I actually want to do many of the things I know that I NEED to do.  Here’s to good things happening and progress in December and then in 2017.

Now, for December, I do have things I want and/or need to accomplish:


  • Focus on kids’ needs for school and for projects
  • Get ready for Christmas by 12/15/16
  • Make something for Christmas Eve celebration – new recipe


  • Finish up audits from November.
  • Prepare December audits and make minor tweaks where necessary.


  • Keep spending down to a level that I can pay off by February.
  • Plan spending to avoid adding to Christmas spending.
  • Check on special needs trust with lawyers.


  • Eat one salad a day.
  • Eat more mindfully on Christmas Eve.
  • Watch sweets intake.
  • Exercise daily, even if just for 10-15 minutes.

I hope that I can accomplish at least some of these things this month.

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Big Day for Our Girl

Our daughter had an appointment with her orthopedic doctor today.  She’s been seeing him since she was about three years old; she’s nine now.  That doesn’t sound like much until you figure in that she might see him 2-3 times a year when her feet were really growing or she needed new braces for some other reason.  So, basically, she has had ankle-foot orthotics (AFOs) since she was about 3-4.

At the end of the school year last year, I took her in because she needed new AFOs.  I can’t remember why now, but I think it was just that she was rough on them.  She likes to run and jump and move about and eventually that takes a toll on the ankle portion of the AFO.  Anyway, we went in and her doctor was so impressed with her progress that he said she could have the summer off, free of braces.  That is a wonderful thing – the braces would come up to just under her knees and being basically plastic, they do cause a  lot of sweating in warmer weather.  We were very happy.

So today we went back as a follow-up.  Her doctor had asked us to bring her in at the end of summer to she how she was doing; we got a little behind and managed to get an appointment today.  He said she looks great and she doesn’t need the AFOs anymore!  I am SO happy! So is she; she was always patient about putting the AFOs on and did fine wearing them, but you can see how much more she enjoys running and jumping now.