Being Me…

and discovering that that is quite the roller coaster ride. Wanna come along?

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As summer draws to a close

We’re all going back to school.  My husband and I have both decided to take classes (free) on Coursera.  He’s taking three currently, two of which are work-related.  The other is strictly for his own benefit.  I’m taking one at the moment, trying to work back into the swing of family life, chores, work, and school work.  Still, it feels good to stretch the muscles and pull myself out of the (mostly comfortable) rut in which I’ve been stuck.

Of course, our children are back to school as well.  Our eldest is doing well overall, despite some bullying on the bus and around the neighborhood.  It seems to roll right off his back, but I am definitely keeping a sharp eye out and having a word here and there where possible.  My daughter is having adventures of her own.  They’ve moved her to a different school – not the one within walking distance.  Sigh.  She is completely across the (huge) city.  She leaves the house at 7:25 (for an 8:40 start time) and arrives back any time from 4:20 – 5:20.  Her bus has broken down four times now.  Seriously?  This is what the school system said was in her best interest.  I will grant you that they have more things for special needs more readily available at that school, but I’m really not sure how a 10-hour or more day is all that beneficial for a six-year-old.  Still, I have to admit that she’s not fussy when she gets home.  Sigh.

Basically, it took all of September to settle back into our routines.  We’re going to have to work on that better next summer.  Both children are on the autism spectrum, our daughter more severely affected than her brother, and BOTH do much MUCH better with routines, with schedules.  Still, it hasn’t been as painful as I thought it might.

I am slowly feeling more human.  Things have settled down at home.  Work has improved – and is also starting to grant me more room to grow and develop.  It is interesting to me that as we enter seasons associated with death and decay, sleeping and withdrawing, my relationships are blooming and I am growing and changing.  I have hope for the first time in a long, long time and it feels good.


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Oh how I love the start of fall

And the start of school, and the start of football…..

I love the slow cooling of temperatures.  (Well, ok, they COULD move a LITTLE faster, if you ask me!)  I love being able to get more accomplished during the day and being able to really enjoy my family time in the evening.  I love cooler nights (later in the month) that make it easier for me to sleep.  I love the sound of leaves crunching under foot.  I love the smell of fires burning in wood-burning stoves.  I love wearing sweaters and boots.

I just LOVE this time of year!

Fall Trees

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The last of August

I cannot say that I’m sorry to see it go.  This year wasn’t as hot or humid as usual, and it was wetter, but it is still a hot, miserable month overall.  I like September – school is in, the temperatures typically get better, and football comes back. ( I am the only woman I know that really enjoys football, as a side note.  Doesn’t particularly bother me – I LIKE being different!)

And did I mention, school is back in session? LOL.  I DO love my children, but I do enjoy a few minutes of peace and being able to do the housework in a timely fashion.  Truthfully, both of my children do better with a regular schedule.  So, I think this will be good for all of us.

This weekend is going to be relatively quiet for us – nothing terribly exciting planned.  I think that that is for the best really.  Our daughter has been moved to another school and we have to prepare for that – which means gathering a lot of information on Lennox-Gastaut Syndrome for a whole new group, and getting her ready for a new place.  Our son’s schedule won’t change much, but the change in his sister’s routine will cause changes for all of us, since she will probably leave about the same time he does but get home well after.  That too will probably work out well, at least for him – he should get more one-on-one time with me now in the afternoon.  We may go out as a family to a meal at some point this weekend, and we’re thinking about trying to go to the “bounce house” tomorrow morning, if they are open on Sunday, but that will probably be about it for excitement.  Sometimes you just need quiet family time.

What am I grateful for as this month ends?  I am grateful for the start of school.  I am grateful for my family and Andy’s, who have helped us get through the summer mostly sane.  I am grateful for my job and the flexibility they’ve provided.  I’m grateful for all the help we received from our daughter’s old school.  I am grateful for air conditioning and a (now) working ice maker.  I am grateful for a cleaner house and a cleaner life.  I am grateful for all the changes that my husband has made recently, to make my life easier.  Life is good.