Being Me…

and discovering that that is quite the roller coaster ride. Wanna come along?


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Water, water everywhere

Well, this is an apt title on two fronts: the outdoors and the indoors lately.  It has rained for two days now and water has nowhere to go.  It is both messy and depressing.

In terms of indoors, our little angle (ha!) has discovered a new way to get me up and paying attention to her: reaching over the kitchen counter and spraying the kitchen with water.  Sigh.  We placed a paper box, folded, at the edge of the counter, hoping that it would either distract her, or would limit the temptation to reach over by hiding the kitchen sink.  She’s not that silly.  So…now to find a way to discourage her.  I cannot give her undivided attention the entire time I am at home.

That girl – always keeping us on our toes.

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A Day at the Park

Ok – it wasn’t a day.  It wasn’t even two hours, but it was as long as I could take the anxiety.  Mom, my son Alex, and I went to an enclosed park/playground with Sophie.  It is the only place that I know of locally that Sophie can run around free.  Of course, I was completely paranoid the entire time and followed her closely.  I think we need to do this again as much for me as for her, so that I can learn to not hover over her and let her have some fun.

At any rate, she did run all over the park, leading me on quite a bit of walking/running.  I gave her space but not so much that I couldn’t cover it in a heartbeat as needed.  I think she had a great time.  Eventually, Alex and I both got tired of keeping up with her so much and we decided to call it a day, but we at least got some time out in the fresh air.

This taught me a lot.  I realize now how anxious I do get out in public, and why I haven’t taken her very many places.  This level of stress and anxiety isn’t healthy in large doses.  It also taught me that she needs to go to this park from time to time so she can experience a little freedom and independence.  That would probably be good for both of us.

 


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Strength and Creativity Needed

Well, our daughter is going to be the death of me.  She has, in the past week, tipped over two dressers.  She is fine; the first dresser is not.  We have been using the dressers/wardrobes to keep her out of the windows and away from the blinds/curtains.  I don’t know how much longer we can do that and I have NO idea what we’re going to do after they cease working.

The dressers are now anchored as securely as we could make them in a rental.  I think this will work for a while.  But what next?  I cannot think of any good solutions.  There are window locks that can be installed but are they secure enough for a very determined child?  If we put the window locks in and move the dressers, we will have to take the curtains down or she will rip them down.  And we wouldn’t be able to close the blinds because she will break them.  So then what?  I don’t like the idea of leaving her windows open to the public, not that there is much walking traffic behind our apartment.  We’re in a rental so we can’t tint the window or frost it or anything similar.  I just don’t know.  I’m trying to think ahead but it is frustrating and worrisome.  I can feel my anxiety rising.  Sigh.  Nobody told me just how creative I would have to be to foil my daughter….

On a brighter note, we picked up our son’s glasses today.  They are round and rather cute on him.  At least that is taken care of for a while.  I also met the school psychologist who will be working with him monthly to work on some issues he’s had at school.  She is young but very nice (I’ve noticed that the older I get, the younger others look!).  I think that Alex will be in good hands.  She asked a lot of good questions and we had a good talk.