Being Me…

and discovering that that is quite the roller coaster ride. Wanna come along?

It’s Over

Well at least the election is over.  That’s the best I can say.  To be honest, my reaction to finding out that Trump won was to wish I could go back to bed and pull the cover over my head.  I still find the concept mind-boggling but it is what it is.  I am slowly getting over the shock.

The first day was painful.  I spent most of it trying to be productive and wrapping my head around the election results.  Prognosticators had been saying – at least a good number of them had – that it was 80% that Hillary Clinton would win.  I was nervous but so many people were saying how far behind Trump was that I didn’t seriously think he could win.

Well.  That was just wrong.  Wrong, wrong, wrong.  And it stinks.  I watched how much hate he stirred up during the campaign – the KKK supported him, David Duke endorsed him, and white supremacy groups supported him.  His “Make America Great Again” turned into “Make America White Again.”  I don’t have to spell out how ugly that is, and what it means to large swathes of our society.

I am still working through the shock.  I hope I am wrong, but I think the next four years are going to be ugly.  I sincerely hope that I am wrong, that he will actually make some effort to be a decent human being.  I don’t know if he has that in him, though.

I was going to put a picture of Trump here, but I couldn’t bring myself to do so, so here are some cute dogs.


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The end of an era

Today was the end of an era.  Our 19-year-old Saturn car was towed away after we signed the title over to a junk yard.  It will be picked apart and sold for parts.  It was a good car, very reliable and had few issues until the last few years.  It died the day before Christmas and it has taken us this long to actually get rid of it.

It is funny – I didn’t expect to really feel anything.  It is just a car.  However, it has been part of our lives – 19 years out of our 24 year marriage.  We brought both babies home from the hospital in it.  We moved from Norfolk to Northern Virginia and back again in it.  We bought it when my husband first broke into his field, computer programming, as a celebration and a demonstration that finally our struggles had lead to real, reliable jobs (in Northern Virginia, making actual living wages).

Good bye my old friend.


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And here we go UP again…back on the roller coaster

Well, I had surgery earlier this month and was out of work for two weeks plus a couple of days.  I returned to work today to discover that I have a new position, in a new group, doing completely different work in a different building.  Sigh.  I had to pack up my desk, then find someone to help me move my stuff because I cannot lift anything right now.

I suppose that it will be ok in the end but I’m just feeling very uncertain right now.  What a thing to come back to; couldn’t they have just got me a card? LOL.

I hope that I can adjust.  Goodness knows I have had enough practice, but I’m tired of new positions.  Sigh.