Well, I’ve accomplished one thing in the past month – I’ve gotten my daughter into Project Lifesaver, a program to help bring people with cognitive issues home if they run off. I’m so relieved – I mean, I hope I never need it but knowing that she has an anklet to allow the police to track her if she disappears is such a relief. Her anklet was put on by a very nice policeman, who checked to make sure it fit just right. He gave me all sorts of information on the program, and explained what information the police need if I ever need to call them.
At least I am starting to make progress in the projects on my to-do list: (a) Project Lifesaver, (b) EDCD waiver for Sophie to help pay for expenses and possibly get respite care, and (c) get our life insurance up to a reasonable level and write wills. Those are the big three and now I’ve accomplished the first.
I feel like I’ve been in a fog for a very long time. I am sure that it has been depression, despite being on antidepressants. It is amazing what a deep whole depression can be and how much effort it takes to dig out from it. Escaping its grasp is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do and I expect it will be a lifetime fight, just based on our circumstances. I try hard to be kind to myself when I take a few steps back and celebrate times like now when I make progress.