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Not to be ungrateful

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But…

My mother told me she would be here for the kids at 1:30 – to take them to a water park.  She said she’d keep them for dinner, so that my husband and I could go out.  I thought all of that was just lovely.  I’d get some peace and quiet in the house and be able to accomplish some things free of children and have dinner with my husband.

Well, at 1:18 she called and said, “We are almost home.  We are going to stop for a few minutes, then we will be on our way.”  That was close enough – sounded good to me.  And there was not another peep out of them.  This is my mother – who adores the telephone.  I am fairly certain she was born with one attached to her ear.

I entertained my kids as best I could – my son already knew he was supposed to be going to Grandma’s and the water park.  I walked with them, I walked them to the neighborhood park for a bit, I kept close to home because, well…they would be right there.

2:00.  2:30.  3:00…the irritation began building.  My mother has her own “time” in our family but this was beyond normal.  The family always tells her a family event will be 30 minutes later than it actually will be in an attempt to have her arrive close to on time.  This was not the normal thing.

Twenty minutes to four…she and my step-father show up.  They had called 15 minutes earlier to say they were just leaving the house.  When they get to our house, she tells me that Dad had ordered a replacement for the glass plate in the microwave and they had had to drive to a neighboring city to pick it up.  It took three hours.

When I pointed out that I could have taken the kids to the park had I known how long they would actually be, she just stopped and looked at me.  Then she said, “It is what it is.”

It is a long story, but I am QUITE certain that my stepfather is behind this.  He is incredibly jealous of any time my mother spends with me or my children.  He is much like a toddler in many ways – sad to say about a 70+ year old man.

I loved him at one point, but lost all respect for him over the years.  He has gotten in my face and called me a slut.  He has made vicious little verbal digs to me, when nobody is within hearing distance (with one notable exception that I think I wrote about but cannot remember at the moment – my mother-in-law and her twin heard it and were horrified).  He is vicious to my mother at times, even in public, always acting as if he’s joking.  If he is, it is always the world’s worst joke.  I’m over it.  I’m over the jealousy, the games, the attacks.

In addition, he knows the issues I had growing up getting my father to be there when he said he would.  He knows that there were many weekends when I would wait for my father to get me, only to be disappointed.  I’m not letting this happen to the next generation.  My son has other grandfathers.  I will not let him continue this.

I hate to be ungrateful for the help they provide with our children, but I think the price is too high.

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2 thoughts on “Not to be ungrateful

  1. Oh I’m so sorry to hear this 😦 That’s terrible that your step-father would resent time your children have with their grandmother! My mum recently passed away unexpectedly and she was a loving and devoted nanny who would, I’m sure, give anything to be back here and have more time with them. Your mum needs to remember what’s important and not let your step father dictate to her like this. Hope it all works out for you x

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    • Thank you so much! I don’t understand it myself. I don’t know how a grown man can resent innocent children, but well…he is who he is. I’ve gotten to the point that he can no longer get to me, but it bothers me that he’s separating their grandmother from them. I hope she wakes up. Thank you for the good wishes! lol…and thanks for reading my venting 🙂 I do feel better for letting the frustration out!

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