Being Me…

and discovering that that is quite the roller coaster ride. Wanna come along?

Your high school diploma should come with more warnings and disclaimers…

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Seriously, I thought I had a good head on my shoulders; was fairly calm, organized, mature…I thought I was ready.  And yet it seems like so many of my decisions since then have been…not the best.  I wonder some days if I made ANY good decisions between then and now – but that’s largely on my more depressed days (in case you hadn’t guessed…).  I know some things I decided – like marrying my husband – were good decisions.  But so many seemed to have ended up so poorly.  I suppose a lot of this feeling is coming from hind sight, which doesn’t really help matters.

Overall, my life is good – but I am so very far from where I thought I would be at 40.  On a completely different path, basically from the top down.  This isn’t where I meant to be at all, and I don’t know if that’s a good thing or a bad thing.  I love my children, and I have finally gotten out of the field I fell into and hated … but I don’t know that I’ll ever get to finish my degree.  And even if I do, I find it highly unlikely that anyone will hire me once I do – thanks to my age.

On the other hand, there is no reason I cannot get my degree and work on my own.  I just have to be creative about it – and creativity is one of my strong suits.  Hmm…that’s something to think about.

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