I guess that gives me room to grow…apparently quite a lot of room, but hey.
I’m trying to focus on the positive and not so much on the negative, but life has been rough lately. I’ve been struggling. I always have thought that I was a strong person. I’ve always thought that I could deal with anything. But I’m having a hard time. I’m having a hard time dealing with little things now. I’m having a hard time focusing.
I’m starting to wonder if I’m capable of this; I always used to think that God wouldn’t give me more than I could bear, but now I wonder. Realistically, I think I’m just tired and stressed. I’m not eating like I should or taking care of myself properly overall. I know that intellectually, but…I wonder if I can do this.
Sigh. I’m sure that I’ll pull myself together and be fine later this week, but…
Well, I suppose this is my way of venting. I don’t have close friends right now and I can’t really talk with the family…so I just need to let this out so it isn’t festering.