You know, I think it is really important to me (and FOR me) to keep this blog. I think it is very important that I have a place to pour all of this out, all of this depression, grief, and so forth. I think it is important to find out what makes me tick, what makes me sad, mad, giggle, and so forth.
But the depression I’ve been suffering from for some time now has really been effective at stopping me. I just haven’t felt up to doing ANYTHING creative lately. I haven’t felt like expending energy beyond the bare necessities lately and that is not a good thing. Now that I look at it, I think that I have been sinking back into ruts that I thought I had moved beyond. Well, I suppose that it is a good thing that I stop from time to time and look at my habits and my recent behaviors!
Anyway, I really intend to do better. I don’t want to be this unmotivated. I don’t like this at all.