I am still trying to pick up the pieces from yesterday’s evaluation of my son. My friends and family have been very supportive and encouraging so I think I’m mostly back on track – I just have a tiny little voice in my head saying, “You haven’t been doing enough. You haven’t been working hard enough.” (And so on.) I’m trying really hard not to listen because, well, what’s done is done and I really was doing the best I could under the circumstances.
I’m just rather tired now. I keep hoping that 2008 will be a much better year than 2007, but I wonder. Well, it is too early to tell, of course, so I am just going to keep going. All I can do is the best I can do; everything else will just have to take care of itself.
I am also trying to focus on things to be grateful for; I would really like to change my focus from a more negative one to something more positive. Today I am grateful for the overall good health of both children. I’m grateful for my health as well. I’m grateful to have a warm house and a roof over our heads. I’m grateful for the care and concern of friends and relatives (and for people who have commented on my blogs recently). I’m grateful for friends who have been supportive and have tried to help take my mind of things for a little while. All in all, there is a lot that is good in my life and I really need to stop and remember that when I start worrying and getting anxious again.