In the depth of winter, I learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. Albert Camus
I am going to keep the above quote to look at from time to time for a while. I am feeling cold and alone right now. My friends have pretty much abandoned me since I had my second child and my family seems to not be what I thought it was. My parents-in-law do their best to make me feel loved and welcome in their home, but knowing that you are not important to your parents (and a loved stepparent) really is odd. That goes so far against what I was brought up to believe.
My husband loves me. My parents-in-law love me. My sister-in-law and brother-in-law are great and they go out of their way to spend time with me and my husband. So I do have another family now. I need to focus on these things, not the negatives.
I am finding that I don’t need a father figure like I used to. I’m mature now. I’ve been married for 16 years. I have two children and a husband around me. In me is a strength of which I am just beginning to discover the depths. I can let this get to me and hurt me and change my outlook, or I can look at this as his problem and do my best to not let it scar me. How I handle this is my decision and how I handle it will determine the effect of all this on my relationship with my mother.