Being Me…

I have really been trying to post more frequently but today was just rough. My dear daughter (7 months - almost decided (apparently) that she’s allergic to sleep - she was up every three hours or so last night. Every time I got to a nice, comfortable deep sleep - there she was. I know this will pass - and relatively quickly too. I know this is the last time I’ll be going through this - but boy am I tired.

I have learned that I have a long way to go in terms of patience and the ability to bear tiredness. I try, but I do seem short on patience when I haven’t been able to get any deep sleep.

I have been keeping a paper journal over the past month.  I’ve been writing in it mainly at night because that is when I have the most uninterrupted time.  My goal has been to keep it in the morning because I love to start the day with a little “me” time, and it helps me organize my thoughts for the day.  I don’t think that is going to work, but I did realize that since I type faster than I write, I might be able to blog each morning and perhaps this could serve the same purpose.  So…

As of today, I’m going to try to come up with one entry per morning.  Some may be complete “garbage” - if I can’t really come up with something even reasonably organized, if I’m just rambling about a lot of nonsense, or if I just think it is too personal.  Those days, I’m simply going to make the entry private.  Others that relate to the purpose of this goal or are more general, I’ll continue to post.

We shall see how this goes and if I can make time each morning.  I really need to get more organized with my time during the day.  I will have to do so if I get a job, but it would probably be good if I start the process before I get a job!

Well - time to make breakfast for my son!  The day is starting…

I hope that I will get to spend more time getting to know myself better this year.

I hope that I will have a better idea of who I am and what I stand for by Christmas.

I hope that I will have more faith in myself and in my ideas, goals, instincts than I have in the past.

I hope that I will share more of myself with those around me (those who are interested, of course) and not build so many walls.