Being Me…

The first day is over.  I’m really pretty tired, which is funny.  I got up at exactly the same time as I have been normally lately and I got out of the house.  I wouldn’t have thought that my job would have caused this, but I suppose it is mental tiredness as opposed to physical.

Overall, thus far I would have to say that the job isn’t as bad as I thought it would be but it also isn’t as good as the agency said it would be.  (Surprise, surprise.  I will also say that I’m done with agencies.  Yes they found me this job, but only after I informed them that I had a serious job possibility.)

We shall see how this goes.

Today has been an up and down sort of day.  I accepted a job through an agency.  That was an up - I certainly need a job.  However, I felt pressured to take it and that just made me angry.  In addition, I gave up on a job that I was hoping to hear about today because…well, they’ve been dragging their heels, taking their time.

This job is good because it will provide a paycheck.  It will also provide decent benefits.  It isn’t a bad drive (that is a HUGE plus right now, with gas prices being what they are).  There’s a small gym onsite, though I probably won’t be able to use that because I’ll need to get home to see the kids.

It is bad because it isn’t what I hoped for.  The environment is different.  I’m going to be dealing with angry people on the phone for at least part of the day, every day.  Yay.  That’s what i need - MORE stress.  And it doesn’t pay particularly well.  There’s a certain disappointment in that; it isn’t that I didn’t expect a pay cut when I moved back here - I just didn’t think it would be this big.  Sigh.

So, basically, I’ve spent the day going from irritated and disappointed to relieved to irritated and disappointed to relieved….all in all, it has been tiring.  I hope at least I can sleep.  Maybe the relief of some of my stress will allow me that at any rate!

Companies are at least starting to show some interest in me.  I’ve had two interviews this week, one in person (yesterday) and one on the phone (today).  If I had my preferences, I’d prefer the one that I interviewed with in person.  However, at this point, a job is a job is a job.  I can grit my teeth and do anything (within reason) to get some money coming in!

Even if neither pans out, which is always a possibility, it is encouraging to get two interviews.  I feel better now that SOMEONE is showing an interest - I was starting to wonder what was wrong.  It gets discouraging to send out resume after resume, to deal with agency after agency, and get NOTHING.

So…things are looking up.