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Evaluation of my son

Well, I didn’t do my blogging this morning, but it isn’t a surprise.  We had a team of people out to evaluate our son this morning.  You see, he’s two and a half and not talking as much as the doctor would like.  Ok, I’m a little concerned about that as well.  Anyway, the team arrived at 9:00 am and started the evaluation a little after that.

I know this is is a good thing, and it is for his own good, to help him catch up to children his own age.  I know that it isn’t  a slur against my mothering or anything like it, but that is what it feels like.  I feel guilty.  I feel like I’m failing my child.

Well, all I can do at this point is recognize the things that I do need to do better, the mistakes I’ve made, and the problems I’ve had, and rectify them or improve, then move on.  Focusing on the mistakes and problems isn’t going to help.  Focusing on fault isn’t helpful.  I need to take action and move on; I can’t just get depressed about this.  As a parent, I’ve got to pull myself up, dust myself off, and focus on my children.

January 30, 2008 Posted by mmiller | Children, Depression, Family, Personal | , , , , | 2 Comments