Being Me…

Our move is becoming more and more of a reality.  Boxes are appearing and being filled.  Our house is becoming more and more chaotic.  The job search is becoming more urgent.  Sigh.  I’m beginning to really FEEL the move - the loss of my home, the change of neighborhood and familiar things, moving away from people I know here.  We’ve lived in this area for 11 years and now I am feeling the loss.

I know that this will be good for us, but I can’t help grieving a bit.

Well, not only is my life changing rapidly, apparently so is WordPress!  I know I hadn’t been on much lately, but really…what a shock.  Nothing is where I left it!

Well, like everything else, I’m sure I’ll get used to this - I just could have used a “heads up”.  I guess that wouldn’t have really altered anything, but I’ve got enough surprises in my life these days.  Oh well…I’ll get over it.

I do think that I am going to like this, once I get used to things and figure out how to do things I used to do so easily.  I’d like to think I’m flexible enough to change and adapt and move on, easily and preferably without complaint.  Inflexibility in life isn’t a good thing.

Things are about to change.  We have decided to sell the townhouse and move back “home” - back to where the majority of our families are.  We’ll then have help with the kids, help getting  back on our feet, help and support in any number of ways.  It feels good, it feels like the right decision even if it is a little sad.

I’m going to miss my townhouse, the rooms that I’ve gotten just the way I want them.  I’m going to miss my yard, even though I never arranged it the way I wanted.  I’m going to miss my neighborhood with its nice paths and playgrounds and lake.  I’m going to miss the convenience of everything around me.

It will be ok, though.  We’re finally taking steps in the right direction and moving on with our lives.