Determination

I am determined to turn things around, to make improvements where I can, to take better care of myself.

I am determined to be the strong person I know that I am, dust myself off from the mistakes I’ve made, and get on with my life.

I am determined to acknowledge my mistakes, learn from them, and move on.

I am determined to set a good example for my children.

I am determined to set goals and achieve them – goals that stretch me, move me out of my comfort zone, and improve myself and my life.

I am determined to get out of the situations we’ve been in and through recently.

I am determined.

I am really getting to know myself these days…

I am discovering that I am much, much stronger than I suspected.  I have to be now.  My daughter is having seizures and I have to be.

I am also much more patient than I thought.  I’ve discovered that it is really a good thing in life to PICK your battles; some things simply aren’t worth the expenditure of energy!

I am sometimes rather silly, for an intelligent and generally rational person.   I went off my medicine recently because I felt better; you know what – sometimes that ISN’T the time to stop taking it!  Sigh.

Words to remember…

Don’t judge each day by the harvest you reap … but by the seeds you plant 

Robert Louis Stevenson

I really need to remember this.  I’m afraid today was not one of my best days.  I know that I shouldn’t beat myself up over it, but I do feel bad that I was irritable with my children this morning.  I need to remember that what I do and say makes an impression and if I am too tired, then I need to take steps to keep it from happening again.  I need to do better.  I love my children and I want them to have happy memories of childhood – not memories of a grouchy Mommy.  Sigh.

Well, now I know what I need to do.  I’m not going to kick myself for my failures today, but I am going to do what I need to do to make sure I have a better start tomorrow: go to bed earlier.  Yes, I’ll have to sacrifice the only time I have to myself during the day (which is hard) but that’s part of parenting.