I think perhaps I understand now…
Well, I think the emotional upheaval I’ve been going through recently is actually not abnormal, nor is it a sign that I’m losing my mind – no, really!
I think three years of being on an antidepressant then coming off of it has been catching up with me and I am simply having to adjust to being off the medicine. Yes, I went off of it carefully and deliberately and yes, that was definitely the right decision. I am apparently just completely unused to FEELING just about EVERYTHING.
I’m doing much better now and things seem to be settling out a bit. I think that I am responding much more normally to things both good and bad now; we shall see if that lasts! (lol – family visit coming up in a day and a half!)
Sleep…or hibernate?
I really wonder about myself these days. I know that I’ve had a cold and I need rest. However, this is really something. In two days (not two together, mind you), I’ve had 24 hours of sleep! I swear my body is just taking over and doing what it wants, despite the things I need to do.
I suppose it must be the cold. I do tend to sleep more when I’m sick. I have just never done it more than one day, not that I can remember. I swear my husband was starting to think he’d have to come over and poke me or something, to make sure all was well. (Just as well he didn’t – it certainly WOULDN’T have been after that!)
I guess this will pass; I certainly hope so. I can’t keep up with this really, really short days! I’ve got things that need doing! I’ve got babies that need me! (Ok, I’m trying to view this as quality father-and-children time, what do you think?)
Interesting post recently
I had a post recently about an ailing cousin; she’s been stricken with melanoma that seems to have spread throughout her body. I’ve been too upset to really post much lately because of this; it is a miracle that I’ve not suffered this way too, because she and I are a lot alike in coloring.
When I made this post, I received one comment in reply; rather than encouraging me or comforting me, the person chose to tell me that the “sun hates whites” and “god hates whites” – that’s why we “burn” with skin cancer. I deleted the entry and the post because I realized that responding to him the way I wanted to would simply inflame him and cause more hate to appear on my blog. I’m just so disappointed; I really didn’t expect responses to my post, but I certainly didn’t expect hated to spew forth. I have always known ignorance abounds on the internet, but I haven’t been touched by it much until now. Apparently, it isn’t just whites that are racists or bigots.
I don’t even know what else to say. I am just speechless.
