I think perhaps I understand now…
Well, I think the emotional upheaval I’ve been going through recently is actually not abnormal, nor is it a sign that I’m losing my mind – no, really!
I think three years of being on an antidepressant then coming off of it has been catching up with me and I am simply having to adjust to being off the medicine. Yes, I went off of it carefully and deliberately and yes, that was definitely the right decision. I am apparently just completely unused to FEELING just about EVERYTHING.
I’m doing much better now and things seem to be settling out a bit. I think that I am responding much more normally to things both good and bad now; we shall see if that lasts! (lol – family visit coming up in a day and a half!)
Home again, home again…
Well, here goes another attempt at this. I really let this blog slide. SO much for my initial goals/hopes/etc.
At any rate, I am feeling much more motivated these days so I am determined to try again. I have stopped taking my antidepressants – this is the second time I’ve done so, but this time, I actually feel better WITHOUT them! Yay! I’m clearer, more connected to people around me, and less suicidal! All good things, I must say. I think it was time to stop.
I’m exercising again and generally trying to get more rest. I’m eating better and doing a better job caring for myself. Yes, I do get caught up in computer games, some days more than I should, but I’m also doing the housework more frequently, cooking more, and just doing a better job of managing my life. I hope I’ve stumbled back on the right path, after being off of it for so very long.
Being me? I’m not sure I want to…
What a weekend…the second in a row. The majority of childcare, housecare, etc. On top of insurance worries, behavioral issues and the like.
Can I be someone else now? Please?
I’m doing the best I can but it feels so futile some times. My three-year-old has behavioral issues with school – and at home – and its exhausting. My one-and-a-half yearold has seizures and health issues.
I have done my best to keep my head above waters, but I’m so tired.
I’m just so tired. I had a massage this weekend courtesy of a coworker of my husband’s – and half an hour later I was back where I was before I started. Sigh.
