Home again, home again…
Well, here goes another attempt at this. I really let this blog slide. SO much for my initial goals/hopes/etc.
At any rate, I am feeling much more motivated these days so I am determined to try again. I have stopped taking my antidepressants – this is the second time I’ve done so, but this time, I actually feel better WITHOUT them! Yay! I’m clearer, more connected to people around me, and less suicidal! All good things, I must say. I think it was time to stop.
I’m exercising again and generally trying to get more rest. I’m eating better and doing a better job caring for myself. Yes, I do get caught up in computer games, some days more than I should, but I’m also doing the housework more frequently, cooking more, and just doing a better job of managing my life. I hope I’ve stumbled back on the right path, after being off of it for so very long.
Little by little, one travels far…
Little by little, one travels far.
J. R. R. Tolkien
I am going to write that where I can see it every day. I seem to have a tendency to try to get where I’m going faster, in life, in the car – apparently everywhere. I’m impatient to get back to good times, to get back to “normal” whatever that is – or was.
Well, you know what? Things are never going to be the way they were – that isn’t how life works. I need to remember that no matter how small the steps I’m taking seem, I WILL get somewhere. I WILL make progress…if I keep going. I need to keep my focus and not get distracted or discouraged.
Tomorrow I become a REAL employee…
Yay! I’m no longer a temp…
Yes, the agency served its purpose and led to me and my husband BOTH getting jobs…but they did no more than they had to and they certainly were not helpful in fixing problems I had. I won’t miss them at all – and I hope not to go back.
It feels good to move into a “permanent” position, even though I know there’s not really job security anywhere anymore. Temps are usually the first to go, so it is good to get away from that. I feel more secure, and that is a relief of some of my stress.
Here’s to a bright new year, and hope for the future.
