Being Me…

And I can feel it.  I’m in the midst of a move, health issues with my daughter, development issues with my son, financial struggles, the search for work, the search for health insurance…and I’ve had this on a back burner.  (Go figure…how many FRONT burners does one person have?)

But I can feel it.  I feel better when I write, journal, whatever - whether it is actually written or typed.  I feel better if I take some time during the day to write out what I need to remember, what is worrying me, what I need to do or take care of, plan things out, or simply vent.  I really need to do this right now - surely 5-10-15 minutes a day is doable.

Our move is becoming more and more of a reality.  Boxes are appearing and being filled.  Our house is becoming more and more chaotic.  The job search is becoming more urgent.  Sigh.  I’m beginning to really FEEL the move - the loss of my home, the change of neighborhood and familiar things, moving away from people I know here.  We’ve lived in this area for 11 years and now I am feeling the loss.

I know that this will be good for us, but I can’t help grieving a bit.

Well, not only is my life changing rapidly, apparently so is WordPress!  I know I hadn’t been on much lately, but really…what a shock.  Nothing is where I left it!

Well, like everything else, I’m sure I’ll get used to this - I just could have used a “heads up”.  I guess that wouldn’t have really altered anything, but I’ve got enough surprises in my life these days.  Oh well…I’ll get over it.

I do think that I am going to like this, once I get used to things and figure out how to do things I used to do so easily.  I’d like to think I’m flexible enough to change and adapt and move on, easily and preferably without complaint.  Inflexibility in life isn’t a good thing.