I think perhaps I understand now…

Well, I think the emotional upheaval I’ve been going through recently is actually not abnormal, nor is it a sign that I’m losing my mind – no, really!

I think three years of being on an antidepressant then coming off of it has been catching up with me and I am simply having to adjust to being off the medicine.  Yes, I went off of it carefully and deliberately and yes, that was definitely the right decision.  I am apparently just completely unused to FEELING just about EVERYTHING.

I’m doing much better now and things seem to be settling out a bit.  I think that I am responding much more normally to things both good and bad now; we shall see if that lasts! (lol – family visit coming up in a day and a half!)

Being me…hasn’t been much fun lately

And I think I’ve figured out why.  Now that things are improving in our lives in different ways, I think the three years of really intense stress and loss is catching up with me.  I think my body is finally making me pay for bottling things up, for pushing my fear and hurt and emotion aside to do what had to be done.  At least I know what’s going on now.

Now to figure out how to deal with it, let it out, and still manage to get things done.  After all, work and life aren’t going to stop while I fall apart!

Gratitude

I’m grateful for friends who love me.

I’m grateful for peace and quiet.

I’m grateful for good books and time at night to read them.

I’m grateful for a chance to “catch up” on my sleep.

I’m grateful for a weekend away – and for my own place.