Being Me…

5/9/08 Friday

• 7:00 am or so: another event; it was mild but she screamed. After a few minutes, she calmed and went back to sleep.
• 9:45 am - several brief head-jerking episodes. After that, (10 am or so), had breakfast and medicine.
• 3:45 pm - minor seizure with head-jerking, several times in a row. Over in a few minutes.

5/10/08

• No nighttime, post-bedtime seizure

5/11/08

• 8:30 am - small seizure, screamed once and several head-jerks, but over very quickly
• 9:08 am - small seizure, no screaming (barely disturbed her), 3 headjerks
• 6:15 pm - small, no screaming. Multiple headjerks - 3-4.
• 7:45 pm or so - cried loudly, but if it was a seizure it was over very quickly. I picked her up and she cried once or twice, then put her thumb in her mouth and laid her head on my shoulder and went back to sleep.

And I can feel it.  I’m in the midst of a move, health issues with my daughter, development issues with my son, financial struggles, the search for work, the search for health insurance…and I’ve had this on a back burner.  (Go figure…how many FRONT burners does one person have?)

But I can feel it.  I feel better when I write, journal, whatever - whether it is actually written or typed.  I feel better if I take some time during the day to write out what I need to remember, what is worrying me, what I need to do or take care of, plan things out, or simply vent.  I really need to do this right now - surely 5-10-15 minutes a day is doable.